Setengah Mateng!

Sometimes in life, there’s a moment when you want anything to be silence. Your mind, your soul and your hearts are heavily exhausted at daily life. You want everybody to be quiet, to be mindful and not just comment and comment and comment.

That’s something i guess happening to me right now. I don’t want to hear anything. I only want to hear my mind. I want to have a chit-chat with my boring mind, sometimes with a joke, and suddenly smiles rosed in my face. “Good one” said myself to my mind. My mind answer me with full of laugh. We had fun together. Only us. Only now.

I assure myself that this is only happening once. And in short period too. This is only a form of tiredness that my mind currently have. I will only “lose my mind” in a day or two. And i never forget that two days of fun i’ve got with my mind.

But in the next few weeks, my mind never stopped making me amaze. I’ve never found such a friendly friendship before. My mind always support me on everything i do. He never criticise me if i do mistake. And he always made me comfortable everywhere.

That morning, i wake up to find that my room, that small spacey room upstairs is empty. I never saw this room empty before. Usually my crappy stuff always made this room look full and messy. But it’s now all empty. Only white wall, and the wood floor reminds me that this is still my room. I questioned myself, is this my room? No answer. I questioned myself again, is this my room? Still no answer. Then suddenly i went panic. I run very fast, scared of the chance that now i’ve stuck in some world without everybody. And yes, my supportive mind said probably yes, there’s no one here, there’s only me and you, said my mind. I’m still running, now opened my front door. I find that no one’s around. I’m running again, increase my speed, knocking all the door that i see on every house in that road. I knock, knock, without answer. I have stuck! I have stuck! God help me!!!

“What happened to that guy?”
“He’s out of his mind. Always think. We never understood what he means.”
“But does the news is right? I mean, he’s smart, right?”
“I don’t know. I don’t think crazy man is smart, don’t you think?”
“And yeah, if you wanna know. He’s ex scientist that find something about relativity”